I was reading a reflection from one of my authors, Henri Nouwen, the other day and he made this statement that “crushed grapes can produce tasty wine”. Sometimes, for me, imagery can really drive home a point to my psyche that just words do not work. Long after I read that, the image kept returning to me, so I knew that it held an important message that I needed to unpack in my brain.
Of course, as I thought about this image, the first thing that came to me was of Lucy and Ethel in the show where they are actually inside of a huge barrel, walking in place as they crushed the grapes! It was hilarious to watch their faces as the grapes squished under their feet… that is really all I remembered about that episode, and it has stuck with me all through these years!
But once I finished laughing at that memory, I really began to think about the meaning of those words…”crushed grapes can produce tasty wine”… what was the lesson in there for ME, or even for ANYONE?
I can remember times in my life when I have felt “crushed”, and the weight on top of me seemed to be squeezing every piece of life from me. It could have been the weight of a big job or project that seemed to be overwhelming to me, where I could see nothing positive FOR ME… it was that kind of heaviness brings forth little or no hope that something good will result.
It could be the loss of a relationship that I held very dear, and no matter how hard I tried to hold onto it, the life of that relationship was being drained. And dying out. It was that feeling of wanting so much to change the result, to change the other person’s mind or actions so that it could be resurrected, yet finally realizing that I have nothing left to stop the end…
it could also be the loss of a loved one… someone I loved deeply and felt connected to, and as much as. I wanted to hold onto a spark of their life, the light was slowly being stamped out, and my final realization that I was powerless to change the result.
In each of these instances, it is hard to realize at the time, that there could possibly be anything to come out of this. That idea that “the end might just be the beginning”, is not in my field of vision, and there just seems to be the darkness and emptiness or the void of what comes next. When I am at that point, hearing that from another person really has little impact because I am so crushed that seeing and hearing and feeling that does not compute.
So, what helps at that particular moment? From MY experience, the one thing that helps is having someone BEING THERE…. it is not someone with words, because I may not be able to hear them, but if I can FEEL their presence with me, then the weight can be shared in some way, and the burden can be lessened in a way.
Gradually, and much slower than we wish, we just might find a glimmer of hope, of light that is beginning to poke through the deep clouds… it is in that place that I begin to see that maybe, JUST MAYBE, I can find, or make something good come out of this situation. I might be open to a different possibility of a job, I may open my heart to take a chance on making another friend, or I can remember the happy memories and the good things my loved one has taught me.
“Crushed grapes can INDEED produce tasty wine”, but only if we are open to it….